I Need a Haircut

I really need a haircut...I'm starting to look like a Chia Pet. I just can not spend the money right now and have been racking my brain to figure out a way. I'm about to take the clippers to it, even if I end up looking like PeeWee Herman. I'm glad I have boys, because I can just use the clippers on them and my husband. In fact my nephew left them here when he moved out so it literally costs me nothing but time. I think I'm gonna see if there are any Beauty Schools in the area...I know sometimes they'll give you a free do if you let them experiment on you. I know it's risky, but anything is better than the hot mess I have going on right now.Wish Me Luck

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R.I.P My Beloved!

Our beautiful, loving cat and best friend died today. His name was Luther and we had him for 10 years. We do not know what happened, we just found him. I have not told my boys yet, because they have already faced enough heartache lately that I just can't do that to them. I know I will have to tell them soon, because they are going to be asking me where he is. He sleeps with them every night. I'm so crushed!

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Help A Fat Chick Out

Okay so I have everything set up. My donate button and address is to the left and yes Grace Matthews is not my real name. No I'm not trying to hide from anyone, but with the job I am trying to acquire they may frown upon my blog so I didn't want them to google me and find it. As it is I'm not allowed to have Facebook or Myspace. If you can help me and my family than I love you dearly and hopefully someday I can repay the favor, if not that's okay to. If you think there is anything I can do to help you out then please don't hesitate to ask...I AM MARRIED so please don't ask for "favors". Thanks

OR

Renee Hall
P.O. Box 785
Stanley, NC 28164

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"I Hate My Life" ~ Bette Midler

I just got done watching Beaches. I forgot how much I love that movie. I love Bette Midler anyway, she always plays a spunky character. I can't believe how much Myim Bialik really looks like her either. Through out the whole movie she is saying "I Hate My Life". I'm really glad I watched it when I did, because it reminded me that she never gave up, no matter how bad things got for her. She was successful and her friend that had all the money had her husband cheat on her and she ended up dieing. So the next thing I did was go to Karyn Bosnak's website and realized that she never gave up either. Her circumstances were a little different than mine. My debt is not from credit cards, however DEBT IS DEBT...no matter where it comes from. I'm not giving up! I can't, I have two beautiful boys that are depending on me to figure this out. So I'm gonna put a PayPal link on this website and if you can donate anything that would be great. I will also give you my mailing address. The other thing that you can do is buy any of my items by clicking on the links to the right. I thank you for anything that you can do. Trust me, this isn't easy. I've never done anything like this before, but I need to do this.

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It Wasn't Meant To Be

Okay so I'm gonna feel sorry for myself for a few minutes and since no one reads this anyway I think it's okay. Since I was a young girl I always felt that I was meant for more. I always wanted more out of life. I just knew that I would be different. I made some bad choices and took some wrong turns along the way, but I've still always felt that there was something more for me. I got my college degree and my family and I moved here, because there were suppose to be jobs...yeah I know what you are thinking. All I ever wanted to do is teach. I landed in this job as a substitute and ended up taking over the position, because the teacher did not come back. I thought this is it...this is my time. Well guess what? Budget cuts! I do not have a job to go to this coming up year. So I sit here and try to find ways to make money so I can take care of my kids and pay my bills. My husband works 70 hours a week making crappy pay and doesn't bring hme enough to support us. For me to get a job, it would have to be full time and above minimum wage, because I have to pay a sitter. So by the time I pay the sitter I'm actually losing money. So I had this bright idea to write a children's book and I did, but guess what? You need money to illustrate and publish it. Not to mention it would take a small miracle for someone to publish it...there are a thousand people just like me out there. Then I thought that I would start a blog and create some product. I could make some people laugh and sell some of my things. Why not? Karyn Bosnak started a website and people just gave her money? What makes her so different from me? I'm not asking for hand outs. Don't get me wrong I totally love Karyn Bosnak and think she is great, but I have to ask...What about me? I can't even get someone to read this dang blog let alone buy anything from me. Even though I only make a few dollars per sale. I've tried so many different on-line jobs, I've made stuffed animals, sold stuff in e-bay, wrote this stinking blog, and for what? I just think that maybe it's just not meant to be for me. Maybe all these years that I've felt that way, I have been diluding myself. It just wasn't meant to be. I was meant to be a failure in every aspect of my life. I completed college and now I am in debt past my eyeballs with no job. It's depressing. I worry about my kids. As a parent you want them to have everything and I can give them nothing. They say money isn't everything...well rich people say that. It's not everything to them, because they have it. Honestly being able to financially support family is the only thing missing from my life, so money is happiness. I'm gonna lose my house, my car, and who knows what else.


It just wasn't meant to be!

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Seedless Watermelon!

My 5 year old begged me for watermelon today and since it's fruit and it's good for you I really couldn't deny him. They were $3 a piece so he had to pick the largest one and it was all I could do to lift it. There was this huge sticker on them that said seedless watermelon, so I was pretty excited about that. While I was trying to juggle it out of the fridge and onto the counter tonight I dropped the huge monster on my big toe. Let's just say I said quite a few curse words and I know that my toe will never be the same again. My poor toe. It did help in the cutting it open process, because it split right open...I hate cutting watermelon...I never have a big enough knife. So I ask you this.



Does this look like a seedless watermelon to you?

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Hmmmmm....Apple Jacks

I really love Apple Jacks. They are so yummy. Best part is, I think they are good for you. I mean they are made from apples right? ... Okay, Okay....so I try ; )

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